nightmares

I had dreams- nightmares- this morning that you were here but ignoring me. I could sense you were near me but I couldn’t touch you. Something I’ve learned is common in widowhood are these dreams where your person has left you or cheated. It’s apparently how your subconscious is trying to make sense of your loss. I have these dreams ALL the time. I rarely get to have good dreams about Pete. He’s always left me in some way and is off having a blast somewhere. Which, honestly… is pretty much exactly what happened so I don’t blame my sleeping brain for trying to create a less painful story than the reality.